((Relationship Corner)) Reality Check

Ok hii people. Long time no post. Still much better than the month long pauses. Anyways, i was checking my e-mails for job postings and etc as always when i noticed a e-mail from eharmony (i had signed up last year after breaking contact with the current love interest temporarly), and it said "The top 8 reasons women/men fall out of love" and after reading the women portion...

She just may be falling out of love.

I then started reading the men version and so far

He Doesn’t Sense that You’re In His Corner.(4/8)

Men place a very high value on loyalty. He needs to know that you’re in his corner – his foxhole. When the bullets are flying overhead and life is tough, he needs a woman who has his back. If he’s pulling away and lost that loving feeling, it could be because he feels that during important times you weren’t the loyal partner he needs.

He stops feeling admired.(7/8)

Many therapists and psychologists have written about how women desire to be cherished and men desire to be admired. For some reason the notion that a woman might admire her man is off-putting to some women. But it is so important to his attraction. A man who senses that he cannot earn your admiration slowly starts to lose interest in the relationship.

BOTH i can seriously relate and can easily say are my nit-picks of the relationship. I see this as a sign. Not long ago (maybe 2 hours ago) i started reconsidering my plans for the year of moving on my own to St.Louis. I'm not worried about the "dangers" the city holds. i grew up in Southeast D.C which i can easily pass as the east coast urban compton without a doubt. I'm 19 and moving to a foriegn city with no connections but her and her family which apparently adored me, but lately has passed me on according to her after our "temporary" break-up. I'm in a decision rut again as always and it's always the same issue.

So far my life isn't in ruins to say. It's a city thats in a occuring battle. Stores are crumbling and lots of good times are dying at the hands of bad times. I'll have to wait for my life's first major "good" victory before making a decision and at the moment it can be between 2 different battles.

My relationship or getting decent work here. If i get good work. Thats a battle won. If i rekindle my relationship. Thats a battle won. If i finally move sucessfully and prosper with Aurora or find someone else. That people. Is a war won.

G'Night people.