Nail Biting...

It's getting down to the wire. The Six Flags trip that my girlfriend got planned for the 29th was just postponed to the 9th of August. That's great because i have a better chance of us going together now. The computer is still in my possession. Can't find any buyers at all. Not even someone willing to go at least 350...

More news...


I went to the mall because i got kicked out the casino/hotel with David (my brother) because he wasn't supposed to be in there in the first place and he told the security that he was with me... FFS. Now back to the mall story. I browsed in Victoria's Secret and was approached by a rep. We chatted about and i asked for a job and come to find out i was chatting up the hiring manager and she told me to go download the app asap and bring it back as they will be hiring in the coming 2 weeks. SUCCESS.

More good news in terms of money. I got a call from sears for my mother I'm guessing and partially me for a job. My phone died mid-call, so i must call back, but I'm sure we'll grab the jobs. I don't feel like selling my computer anymore, but I'm sure i went over that already. I've found MORE songs that i wanna use for videos. At this point i may just go after a media career temporarily.

I got a really great B-Day gift coming too. CAN'T WAIT. BYE

EXCELLENCE

So i got some epic news guise. I spoke with a program that is willing to take me in down in Missouri and also put me on reserve at a mission for housing while i wait for my interview and etc into the group house program. I'm not at all embarrassed about it manly for the fact that i'm moving to a new city and etc.

I CANNOT wait to get the funds to get my one-way ticket. I kinda want to keep my computer rather than sell it. I've been wanting to get back to editing movies so badly and there's bountiful amounts of songs i want to use. In fact there is about 3 or 4 alone that i have plans for.

Today i also looked at PC parts and my mouth went agape... So many cheap upgrades available, it's ridiculous...

$50- 8GB DDR3 Ram
$160- AMD 6890 GXF card <3 <3 Cannot waaaaait to get monies!

BYE

Jobs

Jobs are hard NOT hard to come by. It's getting hired by one that's ever so tricky. The reason i don't ask for much (dad, mom, everyone else. You know this) is because I'm tired of being told no, I'm sorry, your not qualified.

The reason i bring this up is because I'm REALLY confident I'll land this internship at Xboxinformer.com. I have the passion for gaming, witty humor, and pretty decent writing ability to move forward for once in my life and say...

 "Hey you... Remember when you told me that I'm addicted to games? Look where it got me. And no you can't have a dollar"

 When i do grab this internship, it'll be the turning point i needed all these depressing years in the job seeking field. If i don't, Middle East heeeeere i come! I have years of experience in quickscoping and bunny hopping and i plan on using every ounce of it destroying insurgents!

Please don't take that seriously. Although my last resort of joining the army is closing in unfortunately.

BYE

Hello

Hi there. I'm baack. Well job searching has been pretty much like back in clinton and va. Going nowhere. I got my hopes up and swindled by my own mother and believing her constant drawls of there being prosperity here. But i'm just not meant to be on the recieiving end of it i suppose. In order to fund my happiness, i need to sell my gaming computer because quite frankly it's not of much use right now living in a van and hotel from time to time and i need the money to go on a vacation badly. If i do get a job, i'll just build a new one.

More bad news. The STL Housing authority has a waiting list. The list can open any time, but the wait is astronomical... So it looks like i'll have to go either to...

1. A shelter here and be homeless alone unless...
2. Job Corps (even though i've already graduated from there)
3.  Teen homeless program

But if none of those are able to occur then i'll have to

1. Hold some managers at gunpoint and forcefully gain a job.
2. Become a male hooker.

If even those don't work then

1. Become a drug dealer.

If that even fails

1. Jump off a tall building.

If i die then

1. Oh shit. Eh oh well.

If i don't

1. Become famous and get publicity and such.

But if i don't end up doing the jump then i can always join the army and hope that

1. I survive and get all the enlistment bonuses and such
2. Get all the enlistment bonuses and get messed up enough to get discharged

Man life sucks.

Also i noticed that i've earned 14 cents off this blog. I made it for the sole reason to let others step into my life and see my works. I didn't expect to earn money off it (even though i've been REALLY money hungry lately) but if your a dedicated reader or even a person who just stopped by, give my blog some exposure. Post in my chatbox that you've done so and i'll be glad to use your link in your name to properly advertise and expose your blog.

I've also been told i'm hilarious. I don't think i'm completely side splitting, but maybe i've found a new profession i can get into? People would be surprised at what you can discover when your yourself. I know i discovered i walk like a boss when sleepy.

Byee

((Relationship Corner)) Reality Check

Ok hii people. Long time no post. Still much better than the month long pauses. Anyways, i was checking my e-mails for job postings and etc as always when i noticed a e-mail from eharmony (i had signed up last year after breaking contact with the current love interest temporarly), and it said "The top 8 reasons women/men fall out of love" and after reading the women portion...

She just may be falling out of love.

I then started reading the men version and so far

He Doesn’t Sense that You’re In His Corner.(4/8)

Men place a very high value on loyalty. He needs to know that you’re in his corner – his foxhole. When the bullets are flying overhead and life is tough, he needs a woman who has his back. If he’s pulling away and lost that loving feeling, it could be because he feels that during important times you weren’t the loyal partner he needs.

He stops feeling admired.(7/8)

Many therapists and psychologists have written about how women desire to be cherished and men desire to be admired. For some reason the notion that a woman might admire her man is off-putting to some women. But it is so important to his attraction. A man who senses that he cannot earn your admiration slowly starts to lose interest in the relationship.

BOTH i can seriously relate and can easily say are my nit-picks of the relationship. I see this as a sign. Not long ago (maybe 2 hours ago) i started reconsidering my plans for the year of moving on my own to St.Louis. I'm not worried about the "dangers" the city holds. i grew up in Southeast D.C which i can easily pass as the east coast urban compton without a doubt. I'm 19 and moving to a foriegn city with no connections but her and her family which apparently adored me, but lately has passed me on according to her after our "temporary" break-up. I'm in a decision rut again as always and it's always the same issue.

So far my life isn't in ruins to say. It's a city thats in a occuring battle. Stores are crumbling and lots of good times are dying at the hands of bad times. I'll have to wait for my life's first major "good" victory before making a decision and at the moment it can be between 2 different battles.

My relationship or getting decent work here. If i get good work. Thats a battle won. If i rekindle my relationship. Thats a battle won. If i finally move sucessfully and prosper with Aurora or find someone else. That people. Is a war won.

G'Night people.

New start!

Tomorrow should be moving day for real. As in bye Virginia, hello Delaware. Pleeeease let me get this lowly casino docks job that pays WEEKLY... I need to do something epic for my Bday and just money in general. Will upload mixes later.